Xmas 3 [KLCC]

alkisah.. 

credit:

script by [b]

photos by [b] & [f]

saya mau... #001 [checked]

Status: Owned

Date: 22 November 2008

Time: 1900hrs

Venue: Epicentre, Pavillion, KL.

Remark: Finally, yeah, finally it's here and I'm updating my blog on my dearie long awaited MBP. Words aren't enough to describe how I feel about it. It's such an art for me. Oh ya, credit to Sharon for the camera.

Happy Life #007

p/s: tp diri sendiri x smile pon..

Happy Life #006

p/s: dream more? oh, i would like to if they don't turn out to be nightmares..

Happy Life #005

p/s: i don't get the chance to do this often but wait til Xmas..

pengacau

sok kene gi keje, da kol 1 ni tp x tido2 lg. nk tido sbnrnye tp asek 'stare into the darkness' je. mcm2 bnd kacau otak aku yg da penat ni.

pengacau 1:
betapa pentingnya 1 panggilan telefon setiap hari. skrg, hantepun ni semakin 'diam'. mostly outgoing call je, kalau ade incoming call pon sure psl keje, jrg sgt2 la kedengaran "hello, how r u doing today?" bile ade org call. pttla dulu2 hari2 kene call or di-call, x agkt hantepun kena marah..

pengacau 2:
skrg ni selalu sgt gune "erk", "erm", "mm..", "uh" etc. mebi sb selalu sgt dpt kot so selalula gune. to certain extend, annoying la perkataan2 tu. pttla dulu2 kene lrg gune.

pengacau 3:
mata ni da transform jd kolam renang skrg ni. kolam renang y melimpah2 airnye. dulu bole kire setahun baper kali je mata ni transform jd kolam. skrg ni d other way round. pttla dulu2 kalau ade sign nk jd kolam je, trus kene sound kow2 nye..

pengacau 4:
di mn? watpe? ngan sape? baper lame? etc etc etc.. yes, details. aku ade la juga gune soalan2 tu tp xdelah smpi cam DPR yg SHELL submit kat aku hari2. anyways, mmg kene ambik tau la. i mean kene tny soalan-soalan tu (kpd yg berkenaan). rs rimas2 bile soalan tu x berjwb n lg2 la rimas kalau ter-agak2 mcm mn nk tny. pttla dulu2 nk gi mn2, wat pape, absolutely anytg, kene isi imaginery logbook..

pengacau 5:
skrg ni da msk state depression. selalu rs sunyi, selalu rs cam xde sape2, selalu rs sedey manjang, selalu rs buhsan melampau3, super sensitif n symptom2 depression yg lain.. da try mcm2 tp camtu2 gak. pttla dulu2 kalau dgr je x wat pape sure kene marah..

byk lg la pengacau2 yg laen tp risau plak kalau x ter-bgn pg sok. so nk gi brg2 dulu..

p/s: org kate hidup tidak selalu indah.. ke x pernah indah?

beyond the words..

......

[MS]: but.. um.. i think i already know what u're gonna say..

[ST]: how's that?

[MS]: bcoz u're a little like me.. bcoz u're gonna say u're fine, that u can handle it.. so um.. i'll just leave it at this, i'm here, whenever u want to talk, i'm here.

[ST]: thank u. you know that the only thing that kept me alive when i was being held was the thought of being with u. but i also knew that if anything happened to me, u're gonna blame urself and u would spend the rest of ur life punishing urself for it and.. i can't.. bear the thought of that.. so can we make a deal right now that we're even? ... and just wipe the slate clean and no guilt and no responsibility? if we're gonna be together, i don't want it to be out of a sense of obligation or even that we should be, bcoz of what we've been through. i just want to start over.

[MS]: start over. okay.

......

p/s: lonesome..

hari ini

hari ini..










sunyi..

sepi..

aku diam membisu sendirian..

terkenang episod-episod drama yg telah & dan akan berlaku..

ah! usah dikenang, usah dikesal, usah diimpi,

'gembira' itu seakan satu 'penghinaan'..










beginilah hari ini..




"The living are just the dead on holiday"

salam..

to:

[blindheart]

rumet [blindheart]
beribiru & mr beribiru
rumet beribiru
adam abnormal
azmanaziz & mrs azmanaziz
akay & mrs akay
aalim
deng

alice
jul
baby ady
baby e-ish

pakcik
makcik
khawlah
sumayah
mus'ab
ammar
kakcik
adek

kaksu
husna
iena
syafa
arina
intan
jamie
nad
faizi
sham
aimi
farahwahida
dayana
kak atie
yati
cheqna
azy
dani

hawa
maya
helmi
amin
aidil
haneef
aimeer

haha
nida

arief
kupat
syah
ahseng
hawa
jaimi
ramli

muaz & mrs muaz
pokya & mrs pokya
kuwei & mrs kuwei
fariz & mrs fariz
sham
izzu

joe
ezat
bibik
hatta

dak2 jan03
dak2 PIPE28

bos2 & staff2 dhfd
bos2 & staff2 pi

and to those who knows me,

hepi raya day to all of u. may God bless.

tq 4 all the wishes (sms/call) & sori to those who x get my reply, my contact list is limited + i'm kinda "problematic" lately.

special tq & sori to [blindheart]

p/s: to those whose name is not listed, u r under "to those who knows me" :p

sejhok: nah, dah ade tmpt ni..

hatiku..

heart..
i know i've been hard on you,
i'm sorry for the things i've put you through,
before you start to break on me or ask for sympathy,
i need to make you see that it wasn't meant to be.

heart..
i'm not sure it's been long enough,
to say that what i feel is really love,
there's just one way to learn,
sometimes we'll get hurt and right now it's our turn.

heart..
give it time,
help me through,
we can do this together.
you're my strength,
you're my soul,
i need you now more than ever.

heart..
all the hurt will soon be gone,
if you'll just keep on being strong,
you will always be my friend,
so keep on hanging in and we'll find love again.

heart..
don't be lonely,
you got me,
always.

relationship?

TRUST

Trust is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.

A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated, "PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is."Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".

NO POINTING FINGERS

A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?"The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you."

We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, we would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves. If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS?

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand you need television."

There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

NO OVERPOWERING

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character." It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness. It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

RIGHT SPEECH

There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.

A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, "Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered,"You should appreciate that you married me. Other wise, he will be the millionaire and not you."

Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, "Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed suicide.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge. People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

the blind boy

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: "I am blind, please help." There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon that hat begin to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign come to see how things are. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, "Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?"

The man said, "I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way." What he had written was: "Today is beautiful and I cannot see it."

Do you think the first sign and and the second sign were saying the same thing? Of course both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

Moral of the story: Be thankful for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently and positively.

Invite others towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets. When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep faith and drop the fear.

Great men say, "Life has to be an incessant process of repair and reconstruction of discarding evil and developing goodness. In the journey of life, if you want to travel without fear, you must have the ticket of a good conscience."

The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling and even more beautiful is knowing that you are the reason behind it.

sayang kinabalu

this song turn my head into a music box filled with various versions of it..


ACAPELLA version by Infinatez





ORCHESTRA version by Bamboo Orchestra



p/s: budak-budak ni..



LIVE version by Infinatez (Gangstarz Concert)



p/s: exclude the "dirari seekol laki" part.. kinda x besh..



ACCOUSTIC version by Lotter & Rich



p/s: duh! y on earth la ending camtu..



CUTIE version by Tia Arianna





BEATBOX version



p/s: bengong~



ORIGINAL version by Kimin Mudin




other version:
One Nation Emcee - Sayang Kinabalu + Dikir Putri (Remix)

p/s: credit to [b] for the ori version

Happy Life #004

p/s: F~

Happy Life #003

p/s: everyday pon.. "My purpose is to go to the office today." Except for weekends, *wink²

Happy Life #002

p/s: been doin' that everyday not for 10 minutes but hours! haih..

Happy Life #001

p/s: bkn iklan jacob walk of life wuteva tu ar..

Are you speak Engris?

Case #01
Rest rooms
Please use them without hesitation

Case #02
To Guests:
If you go to out-door at midnight or manager is out,
Please use to North Exit near the bathroom.
Because main door is rocked.

Case #03
"Rotion"
(label on toiletries packaging)

Case #04
ALL OF YOU LISTEN TO MEE,
DON'T DISTURB HERE,
WILL CALL POLICE CATCH YOU,
DON'T COME TO MY BANGALOW
HOUSE, UNDERSTAND, O.K.
I HATE ALL OF YOU.

Case #05
CUSTOMER NOTICE
Toliets ouf of Order.
Please use the Ice-Rink.

Case #06
Use no hooks
Handle with cake
Keep fire away

Case #07
KAGOME
in love?
be juicy!

Case #08
We proudly offer you our nuts.
It has a fragrant flavor and taste.

Case #09
Please don't cross any railings
Lest suddenness happens!

I don't speak perfect english but good enough to assist me whenever english is the must-speak language in any occasions. I don't mind being criticized for "ko org sabah ek? weird sabahan english". weird? you ppl, haih..

"I do speak my native version of english, U know.. those punks U see on TV? but it's ok, as long as we know how and when to turn it on & off" - quote, Tyra Banks

p/s: at least I can speak and write in few other languages and I do pronounce them the way it should be.. so kutuk la nk kutuk pon, I don't mind~ "kutukan" is just an opinion anyway.. hihi =)

p/s again: title and content are purposely grammatically wrong

saya mau... #002 re-visit

Date: 16 September 2008
Time: 1408hrs
Venue: Fotoflash KLCC

saler A: amoi, mau cari apa?
[f]: tgk²..
saler A: dr td tgk²
[f]: err..
saler A: kalau amoi, pki ini lo.. (smbl tunjuk canon digital camera)
[f]: sy tamo tu
saler A: habis mau apa?
[f]: sekejapla, sy tgk² dulu
saler A: aiya, mau cari apa ckp la, sng~
[f]: D90?
saler A: woo~ guna seniri ka mau kasi olang?
[f]: sendiri guna la
saler A: skrg guna apa brand?
[f]: x camera lagi
saler A: habis, mcm mn tau D90? mesti ada main2 punya
[f]: btl~ saya x camera, sy pinjam org punya.
saler A: apa brand punya? (sebok tul, huh!)
[f]: aiya, tu x penting la.
saler A: ini bgs punya (tunjuk D300)
[f]: aiya u ni.. itu sudah main la. (yii~!!) itu D90 bila mau smpi? harga brapa?
saler A: itu D90 brapa? (tny saler B)
saler B: x igt la, tgk catalog. br dpt pagi td.
[f]: (rimas aku org² ni)
saler A: D90 kit RM4588
[f]: body?
saler A: body saja.. RM3588
[f]: hurm..
saler A: beli itu kit la
[f]: 18-200 tu..
saler A: itu.. (tgk catalog) RM3188
[f]: (mengira in chinese)
saler A: itu D90 lepas discount.. RM3299, itu 18-200 bole kasi awak RM2900 (did i ask 4 the discount? dgr aku kira cina trus bg discount)
[f]: ooo.. bila D90 smpi?
saler A: bos, itu D90 bila mau smpi? (tny saler B)
saler B: x sure la, mebi around raya
saler A: aiya amoi, x sure la.. beli ini la (tunjuk D80)
[f]: err.. never mind la, tq 4 the info
saler A: aiya amoi..
[f]: tq~ dtg lg~
saler A: (lebam)

saya mau... #001 re-visit

Next-Gen Macbook Pro: Candidate #01

Next-Gen Macbook Pro: Candidate #02

p/s: Apple~ Y do U need 2 make me suffer like this? T_T

R.I.P

In the loving memory of Taling,

"The living are just the dead on holiday."

Condolences from far-far-away land.

p/s: sori, can't recall the real name.

saya mau... #003

sorry iPhone..

saya mau... #002

D90

Dunno Y dis 1 is in da list..

p/s: poisoned?

boredom

uni-tech-pet..

saya mau... #001

Next-Gen Macbook Pro, the clock is ticking..



meet the family..

(click image for spoiler)

p/s: lambat tul!!

8th Convocation

24th August 2008
Chancellor Hall

Finally, it is the "the-end" day. It should be fun, full of excitement bla bla bla, but apart from my body and brain feeling so tired and drained, it couldn't gone any better than feelingless. I could have, at least, view it as a relief for all the miserableness and bz-ness I had for the past I-dunno-how-many-weeks but, yeah, I don't feel the "ownership" of this so called "my graduation day". It’s funny how the way I wrote it made graduation seem like meaningless. Well, as funny as it may sound, for me it is.

......

Oh, enough said.

#46

Pour: Joseph Timbangan

Cher Monsieur,

Joyeux anniversaire!!

friendship?

today..

a touch of anger and a dash of emotions paving its way into my heart..


p/s: [b] thx 4 being there n listen 2 my dunno-wut-da-hell saying..

p/s again: u hypocrite ppl, gth!!

Soon...

If ever things begins to look a little cloudy... they'll get better soon.
Just remember that it's true:
it takes rain to make rainbows,
lemons to make lemonade,
and sometimes it takes difficulties to make us stronger and better people.
The sun will shine again soon... you'll see.

FEEL 100%

"Kita singgah di kedudukan di mana tidak ada kebetulan dan kemungkinan yang wujud."

What I am..

I am an enigma.
I don’t know what it is that makes me what I am and when asked, I never know what I want to say to get the message through.
They call me the Darkness but if I am Darkness, how can they still see me and think they know exactly who “me” is?
Isn’t Darkness just an embodiment of human fear?
A nameless personification of the bitter uncertainty of an unknown world?
This girl – a nameless shadow because she can’t fathom the truth of her own identity.
Watching, waiting, listening, hating, adoring, caring, loving, wondering, wishing, growing, changing, smothering, dying…

I’m a lost cause, I’m an enigma.
If I did my best to hurt you, to push you away when I need you the most, would you try to understand me then?
You see me as some sort of fallen angel, a lost puppy, beaten and whipped, that needs your love and attention but despite your best intentions, I’ll only end up hurting you.
I don’t need a savior, I don’t need your pity or your sad attempts at comfort…
They won’t change who or what I am.
Nothing can change who or what I am and at the end of each and every horrible day, I'm still a lost cause, an enigma.

I’m a freak, I’m a lost cause, I’m an enigma.
They hate me because I’m different.
I hate them because they’re just as different as I am but they’re better at hiding it.
Would I change myself to be like that?
I’d just be another nameless face in a crowded room, where it isn’t who you are
Rather, it’s what you wear, how you speak and who you choose to spend your time with.
It isn’t me, it isn’t who I want to be, but I wish for it anyway.
No one wants to spend a life in seclusion, no one wants this lonely hideaway, suspended above the rest of the world in silence.